Sophomore year in college I decided it would be a brillant idea to die the front two inches of my hair burgandy and then leave the rest of my hair bleached blond. Kinda like the chick from Republica in the late nineties. I was tired of looking like the girl next door. I wanted to look like the edgy girl net door.
My hair color didn’t work out quite as planned. Since I am a natural blonde, the bleached portion didn’t look like normal bleached hair when growing out and the burgandy kept fading to this really odd shade of pink and from there it moved onto this gross orange color. Ultimately, I had to pay to have all of the color stripped out of my hair and then paid to hair the colorist attempt to recreate my natural color.
I haven’t used hair dye since. I’m paranoid that if I do, it won’t turn out well and I won’t want to show my face in the office afterwards.
I made an appointment with my stylist for two weeks from now (she happens to be the very brave colorist that tried to save my hair six years ago – I don’t trust anyone else). I thought I was being adventurous by scheduling for a cut and color with the plan being for highlights. I felt very proud of myself for this bold step forward until I told Brian.
Apparently, if I’m going to spend money on stylist, I need to start make hair choices that scare me a little. And when I started to complain about what if I don’t like it, how will I go to work if it is bad, etc, Brian tells me that it is just hair. It will grow back regardless of how good or bad it is.
He also wants to know what color we should dye his hair.
He makes a great point – most of the changes we make in our lives are temporary at best. We can ultimately decide to maintain those changes or let them fall to the wayside. Sometimes undo-ing the change is painful (from what I hear, tattoo removal is worse than the tattoo itself) but there are very few changes that we are stuck with forever.
Sometimes I find that I’m afraid to make changes in my career. I am afraid that the comfortable situation that I could leave is the best situation I could get. But even a job change isn’t permanent – it is a stepping stone to the next stage of life.
A change is only as permanent as you want it to be. This week I’m a blonde but two weeks from now, I think I am going to be a redhead. I’m a little nervous but now I’m also excited that I decided to do it.
What changes in your life have made you nervous? Did you do it anyway?
Diana said...
1I agree with on feeling the fear of change. I’m in a job I dislike, but I’m scared it is the best out there…especially with all the recession fears. I keep thinking that I should do what scares me to overcome it. But, suddenly quitting seems insane. I’m on the fence about it all, but I hope to get off soon!
04/14/08 7:51 AM | Comment Link
Mom2Cam...Wife2Ger said...
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04/15/08 6:58 AM | Comment Link
brstngphnx said...
3@ Diana – I’m really curious as to how this plays out for you. Will you let us know what side of the fence you end up on?
@ Sandra – I forget that even happened – you are just as beautiful now as you were when we were ten. I am amazed at your bravery and inspired by it.
04/17/08 8:46 AM | Comment Link
Egor said...
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